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September 25 Thoughts...Just got back from his chalet. Tired but happy.
Many thoughts running through my head now. I still have my reservations about him. I'm afraid of getting myself hurt. We are from entirely different social circles. We don't even have a friend in common. He likes hip-hop, R&B, techno(yucks!). I like rock, pop, ballads. He likes dancing and clubbing. I like chilling, no dancing. He's a night owl, I get tired after 2am. Different beliefs, different values, different mindsets. How ironic it is for us to get attracted to each other. Compromise is the key word here. But I enjoyed spending time together with him. It' s a whole new experience.
Friends advised me to go slow. I'm taking my time. Is he?
Can you tell me what's going thru ur head now?
Cos I'm confused again. September 17 Meaningful songSeptember 16 Quiz
September 13 ComplicatedI don't get it. Have you ever heard of Murphy's Law? Whenever you're waiting for the taxi or the bus that you want to take, it just refused to turn up. I get this all the time. Yesterday I went opposite to wait for 96 to get to Clementi Interchange. Waited for 15 minutes. Meanwhile the buses oppsite just came whizzing by, and it's not full. I was pissed. Today I decided not to cross opposite and waited for 188 or 183. Big mistake. Both buses came but were packed to the brim, whereas 96 was whizzing past, at 5 minutes interval. Can you imagine the fury rising inside me? Damn pissed. Why did Murphy come up with this law? The more you want something, the more you're not going to get it.
* Why do you have to make things so complicated? Just let loose and live life as if it were your last. The more complicated you make things become, the more you will not get what you want. Simple logic. Don't thank me, thank Murphy for his law.* September 11 What a weekend!Fri 8/9/06
DXO Night out with the Girls (and a guy)
My first time at DXO. Friday is Ladies Night. Met up at bugis for dinner before heading to DXO to join Angelia n the rest. The band had started playing and she was so excited to see the lead singer. haha. He looks cute in a boyish way la. I just love rock music. Took some snapshots and just chilled, watching people dancing. I too shy to dance la... cos I know I'll look dumb. haha. Headed to Yishun before going home. Hmmm...
Sat 9/9/06
Met up at 615pm at CCK. Went to Yishun for awhile before heading to East Coast. The moon was so round and bright. East Coast has changed tremendously. So many new cafes, restaurants, and pubs. Quite happening sia. After East Coast, we went to watch The Host. It's a lame show la. Not recommended. Waste money only. Headed home after that.
Sun 10/9/06
Went to upgrade my hp plan and bought a new hp. I have free incoming calls now, and a new Motorola V3X. Woooooooooo. Chatted on msn till 1230am. Went to sleep.
Mon 11/9/06
Ended work at 430pm. Only 8 kids came, cos of the stupid HFMD. Good la. Not so noisy. haha. Met up at 630pm at CCK. Had dinner at Sakae Sushi. Yum. My ama ebi. Watched Little Man. It was hilarious. Haha. I love that movie. Highly recommended.
Life has been great so far. I'm loving it! September 04 Moving On...I will forever remember this day. 4th of September 2006, Monday. The last walk we had to BLK 485B. The last kiss, the last hug. Life has to move on. I could see this day coming. This is nobody's fault. It is a mutual agreement. It's not the end for us. It's a new beginning.
Thank you for all that you have done for me during these past three years. If not for you, there wouldn't be this Amanda here today. Thank you for all the laughters and joy you have brought to me. Thank you for all the tears and sorrows that u gave me. Thank you for all the encouragement and praises that you have shone upon me. Thank you for giving me beautiful memories. Thank you for being there for me.
This may be the wrong decision, but I will stick with it. I may regret, but at least I tried. We gain some, we lose some. We learn from experiences.
I love you.
And I know you love me too.
I wish the best for you. I want you to succeed in your career. I want to see your face plastered in all the ERA ads in Singapore. Don't disappoint me.
Let's move on together.... August 29 Bollywood FeverOnly 4 more days to D&D. It's Bollywood Fever!! Woohoo. All the pretty Indian clothes. We booked a hotel room at Marina Mandarin. Gonna doll up there. Bought all my nail art stuff already. Gonna have to-die-for nails.
Oh. We had a rehearsal today. And it just proves one thing. I SIMPLY CAN'T DANCE! I AM SO UNCOORDINATED. IT'S HUMILIATING!! sobz sobz. How the hell do u coordinate ur butt and gyrate to the music? I just feel so awkward trying to move my ass, remember the steps, and smile at the audience. Crap! I gotta practice more. August 27 boring weekendTo tell the truth, I am beginning to hate weekends. Bah! What's so nice about weekends when u have absolutely ZERO plans. I need to get a life man. Weekends are only good for sleeping in. I seriously can't imagine myself spending my weekends staring at my laptop playing solitaire (but I did!). OMG! This wouldn't happen if it was 1 year ago. What happened to my social life?
Ever since friends started getting attached, it seems that the gatherings have lessened tremendously. We used to catch up like once every 2 weeks, or at least once a week. But now, it's been like, almost 2 months since I last saw the sjab girls. Hmm... not to mention my poly friends. I guess all are busy with their working life. As I ventured out of the business sector, the topics that we share are also not as much. They don't understand my job scope, and I can't seem to catch up with the fast-paced business sector. As a result, we grew apart. That's sad. As for the Learning Capital friends, after graduation it seems that all are busy at their own respective centres. They too have their own circle of friends. My dear WWQ also started to lose contact with me ever since he got attached. Hmmm... maybe in their perspective, it was me who avoided contact. Does it really seem to be that way? I guess to a certain extent.
I looked through my phone book and realized that there were at least 20 friends whom I had not kept in contact with. I couldn't even remember some of them until I did some thinking. I felt a little sad. Perhaps I should have taken more effort in keeping the friendships. People have requested to add me in Friendster and MySpace. I rejected because I didn't want shengz to get all suspicious and jealous.
We were watching a TV show and Jacky Wu said, "Men like girls who are independent."
I asked him, "Is that true?"
He said, "Yes. Especially if they have their own circle of friends and are comfortable with them."
I asked again, "Then can I go out with my friends during the weekends when u're working?"
He replied, "Of course! Go ahead. I have been encouraging you to go out with friends."
I asked, "But can I go out with guy friends?"
He said, "Can, provided that u don't cross the line."
Hmm... and I just realised that I indeed have more guy friends than girl friends. I used to spend my weekends playing pool with WWQ and just hanging out in town. But it stopped since getting to know shengz.
The other factor for my boring weekend is cos I don't go out at night. Most of my friends are clubbing and party animals. They will stay up till the wee hours of the morning. I seldom do that, cos my parents do not like the idea of a girl staying out so late (but they allow my bro to do that). Some friends used to ask me to go clubbing with them, to "get a feel of the atmosphere". But transport is a problem. Midnight surcharges are so damn expensive. The last time I stayed out late was the KBox night with Angelia and friends. Luckily Allan sent us home. And I hate to admit, I kinda like staying out late. Cos the streets are empty. And the people are high and happy. I guess there's a little party streak in me but certain factors are stopping me from going clubbing, i.e. parents and shengz.
Anyway, I went out of point. So ya, from today onwards I am going to make an effort to contact my friends. And my weekends are going to be well-spent by catching up with old friends. I shall start this catching-up session next week. I miss my friends. August 23 freaking boredwah lau, super bored now. all my kids are sleeping. nurul down with mouth ulcers. i completed most of my lessons. dunno wat to do now. sianz sianz sianz. November faster come! i wanna go USA!!!! i am ranting already. no gossip kakis. i should get started on my PTC files. ok. gonna start on observations. Please motivate me.
*This is a nonsense entry. No-brainer.* August 20 Weekend19 Aug 2006
Went to my grandma's house. Was my auntie's birthday. Had yummy crabs for dinner! Went back to grandma's house. We played scrabble in Leni's room. So funny. Hadn't play scrabble for such a long time. Really wrecked my brain for the words. But we had hoots of laughter. After scrabble was dai dee, which I totally suck at. Got trashed by Glenn and shengz. Bah! Edwin kept on hitting my knee with the massager, now my legs are littered with bruises. So unsightly. All your fault lah Edwin Chan! Went home at 2330 with shengz. Zzzzzz
20 Aug 2006
Lazy Sunday. shengz woke up at 8am and left for work at 815am. I went back to sleep. Slept till 1130am. My brother called. We talked for almost an hour. My mum was so jealous. haha. Kept on instigating my brother to get me a supplementary credit card when he gets back. Woohooo! I love my brother. heh. Cleaned my hamster cage today. Lots of worms in the litter. Gah! All squirming and wriggling. Goes to show how long since I cleaned the cage. Must clean more often. Went Causeway Point with parents for late lunch. No mood cos I felt bored going out with them. Oooops. Cos I wanna go shopping but they seemed bored. Went pasar malam. SO hot and stuffy. Saw a Tigger stuffed toy and asked my daddy to catch for me. He tried to get it for me and succeeded on thr 4th try! Yay!!! Thank You Daddy!! Muackz. So happy. My mood was better after getting the Tigger toy. Went Lot 1 for grocery shopping and went home.
Seems like weekends are not that happening anymore. Shengz work on weekends, then I so sianz on weekends. I want to take up dancing classes. Was inspired by ballroom dancing after watching this Taiwan variety show. Not those auntie dance ok, it's samba, jive, or maybe some sexy dance! Wooo.. shall go check out the courses available. Anyone wanna join me? August 13 Shopping day!Met up with Huili and Edwin today for lunch in town. We went to Pepper Lunch. Yummy! I love that place. The food is delicious and I love having to cook the beef. MMmmmm..... We took lots of pictures at Pepper Lunch.
Went shopping for HL's Levi's jeans at Tangs. I think Singapore's Levis has a smaller cutting than Malaysia's. I wear a size 24 for the jeans I bought in Malaysia. In Singapore I had to wear a size 26. So demoralizing! I thought I put on weight, but the salesguy said the cutting was smaller. Hmm... HL also faced the same dillema. Shall not disclose her size here.. haha.. She tried on several before decided to get a Square Cut Patty Anne Slim Cut. We went Far East after that. My feet were killing me by then cos I was wearing heels. Yes, me, Miss I-dunno-how-to-balance-on-heels, WORE HEELS! I regretted.
I wanted to look for a really cool metallic sling bag. But I couldn't find any that caught my eye. In the end I saw a flirty dress, and thought that it looked totally adorable. Couldn't resist trying on and I bought it. Shall wear it the next time I go out with shengz. My feet were totally aching by then. Had to rest at Gelare. And we took more silly pictures. Can check them out at my photo album.
It was a totally fun day, except for the stupid heels. I'm off tomorrow and will be going to City Square for more shopping!! Hurray!! August 12 Random Food for thoughts...Who invented Singlish? Who was the first person to include lah, lor, wah lau eh, meh, diao, kaoz, in his/her sentences?
Why do some people pronounce Esplanade as "Esplanard"? Then lemonade becomes "lemonard"?
Why do good-looking guys end up with not-so-good looking girls? Why do good looking girls end up with not-so-good looking guys?
Why are there more girls than guys in Singapore? (take a walk along Orchard Road and you'll see a larger percentage of girls) Where are all the guys?
Who invented mahjong?
How does a cockroach live for almost a week without a head?
Why are some people just so free to plot attacks against a country and later claim that it's for the freedom of their people when so many lives were lost?
Why do heels crack?
Why do we say "see first" when the answer is an obvious yes or no?
Why do we say "Hey, help me to chope the seats ok?" What is the meaning of "chope"?
Why am I so free to think of so many lame questions?
lol!
  August 08 NDPArrghh!! This stupid spaces deleted my entry! Grrr... As I was saying, National Day is here again. So fast. I could still remember my first National Celebration in Primary School. We had to learn "Count on Me Singapore", "We are Singapore" in music class. For Art, every year we would make a flag and wave it during the celebrations. Haha. Now I am doing these to my kids. It's ironic. I guess everything is like a cycle. It just continues on. Our celebration today was great. Much better than Father and Mother's Day. The kids were dancing enthusiastically and they enjoyed themselves. They donned Red and White, some put on ethnic clothes. It was a myriad of colours. So fun!
Tomorrow is a public holiday. But we only get one day off whereas other schools get 2 days.. Sickening! Was supposed to go Sentosa with the SJAB girls tomorrow, but suddenly everybody put aeroplane. This happens all the time. Getting sick and tired of this already. Everytime we tried to organize something, people just come up with excuses to shy away from the outing. So don't blame me for losing contact with you. Faizah and I are trying to keep in contact with everyone but it just seems that people don't appreciate our efforts. Haiz. Getting uptight. At least I'm going Little India tomorrow to buy my Bollywood Fever clothes. My mum is in a "sponsoring" mood. Haha. Great! Henna painting! Yay!! Tomorrow must watch parade., cos somebody is participating. =x
"Are you thinking what I'm thinking B1? I think I am B2. It's holiday time!" I love Banana In Pyjamas. Don't you? haha August 01 it's all overOver le.... I'm sticking to my long and sturdy path... It may be boring but at least there are fewer risks here. July 31 4e6 GatheringMet up with some ex-classmates on Sat. All still looked the same, but with an air of maturity. Zhenhuang is still as cheeky as ever. Wenkang is still nice and soft-spoken. Allan is still a gentlemen, and a great singer especially when he sang Xin Yue Tuan's songs... wah seh.. Tienkang still looked the same. Alex is still as boyish looking and he also sings well. Angelia, aiya no need to say cos always see her. But suddenly realized that our class has very little girls. Hope that the next gathering there will be more people joining us.
Hmm... I miss the good ol' sec sch days where we copy Maths homework, play Truth or Dare in Art class, using the boy's toilet juz behind our classroom cos the girl's toilet is always locked, doing experiments in the science lab. So fun!
Will be meeting Angelia on Wed (2/8/06) for dinner at Holland V. But I dunno how to go from NUS leh... haha... please la, if u ppl are free then just come along and let's reminisce together. Gosh, that sounded so old!!! I meant let's catch up and just chill ya! heh... July 30 Swirly Whirly~Why do things have to get so complicated? Stuck at a crossroad. Which path to take? Please guide me. |
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